Writing Through the Bible in a Year

Kaleidoscope/ Finishing Your Granny Square Blanket

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Philemon & Philippians
“And I am sure of this, that He who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.” Philippians 1:6

Today is a good day because I today I finished my kaleidoscope!

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She’s got at least 48hrs in the squares, 24hrs in sewing them together and then about an hour and a half in the edging. She’s heard a multitude of sermons on how much God love us and she speaks that out in each square being a different color. As varied as they each are, together they tell of the different colors of His love for each of us. Sometimes His love looks dark and brooding while other times it’s light and cheery.  But sewn with love and prayer together they make a covering that protects us from the cold harsh world around us. Each square holding tightly to the one next to it they form a thick barrier that warms the heart just as much as the body.
Yes. It’s just a blanket. But at the same time it’s SO much more. It’s a symbol of a love that surpasses all understanding. It’s a gift that never stops being given as long as it continues to be used.
God’s love was never meant to be put on a shelf to be looked at. It’s meant to be received as a gift and used day after day. His love covers over a multitude of sins,; yes even your worst ones.
He began a good work in you and He will continue working it in you until it is finished – and not a moment sooner. He won’t give up on you. I promise.

Sewing the Squares Together:

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The first thing I did was to sort the squares.  As I was making them I had tied them into groups of ten to make counting easier. I knew I wanted the completed blanket to be 4 feet square. So I made a test granny square and measured it at approximately 2.5in square.
Next I figured up the math:
I converted my desired length into inches: 4ft = 48in.
Then I converted my inches into squares: 48in length ÷ 2.5in granny squares = 19 granny squares per side.
Then I multiplied my length in squares by my width in squares to get my total squares needed: 19 squares × 19 squares = 361 squares total needed to make a 4ftx4ft blanket.
I had my work cut out for me.

Once I had double checked that I had the correct amount of squares completed I cut all the bindings loose and mixed them all together in a large paper bag. Aren’t they beautiful!

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I wanted the pattern to be completely random so as I sewed the squares together I would draw the next square out of the bag. My only rule was that two squares of the same color couldn’t be above, below, to the right or the left of each other; but diagonal was ok.
I used a whip stitch* to join them going ONLY through the back loops. I started at the corners where the chain (CH) stich is.

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Join the squares corner to corner with a cross stitch type “X” to secure them so that they don’t migrate down the whip stitch.

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Work ONLY in the back loops of the square so that you get a nice “invisible” joint between the squares.

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In last week’s granny square tutorial I told you to pull the last chain stitch tight which would make a knot. In joining the squares I found it worked best to start with the corner nearest the knot so that I could then whip stitch right over the knot and the tail making sure that the knot faced the back of the blanket.

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By doing this part first when I went to whip stitch the vertical columns of squares it went MUCH faster because then all my squares were facing the same direction so my stitches all lined up neatly AND I didn’t have any tails to worry about anymore.

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With the edging I tried to do a granny stitch style edge but it didn’t look quite right. It made the squares look like they were continuing on rather than stopping at the edging. I had worked so hard at making all their edges look straight and lined up I didn’t want to ruin that with the edging. So I switched to a double crochet (DC) in each stitch around, including the “hole” created by the chain stitch spaces. At the corners I worked (3DC, 2CH, 3DC) into the CH space of the corner square. Joining the final DC with a slip stitch to the first DC. Finish off and weave in the tail. Tada! A finished work, a long time in the making!

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*Note: to make the blanket two sided you could use a slip stitch or even a single crochet, worked in the back loops only, to join the squares. I actually would have done this but didn’t think about it until I was already halfway through whip stitching and at that point I wasn’t going back!

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Love in a Smile


2 Peter 1:1-3:18

“For we did not follow cleverly devised myths when we made known to you the power and coming of our Lord Jesus Christ, but we were eyewitnesses of His majesty.” 2 Peter 1:16

Eyewitnesses of Christ’s majesty. Have you ever thought about what it would be like to have been there watching everything the Savior was doing? Witnessing the tenderness with which He spoke to the sinners, it had to have been wonderful. I can only imagine the way that He touched the lepers healing them instantly. The gasps from the crowd as He reached out to them, it was a tremendous scandal after all, touching a leper. At that point, for the clean to touch the unclean made the clean, unclean. Yet with Jesus the opposite happened. The clean touched the unclean and made the unclean, clean!!! In Christ we too can have no fear of touching the unclean, because we have been made clean though His perfect blood on the cross.

All too often religion still teaches us that “Thou shalt not…”, but so many of those shalt nots have been turned on their heads! For instance, I know of many that teach against drinking. And for them and their lives, they need to live that and perhaps they’ve even been called to teach that. But then I know others whose entire ministry is based in a bar! They go, they drink (NOT HEAVILY) and they do a Bible Study. They invite the people of the bar to come and join them, and they do! Many have been saved by this very ministry; because suddenly, these drunkards have witnessed the Grace of God right smack dab in the middle of their sin.

Way too often we spend so much time condemning the sin that we forget there is a sinner involved in the process. A sinner that first and foremost needs LOVED. Loved and taught that they matter to an Almighty God who created them and cares for them. I think we’ve lost sight of the POWER of the LOVE of Christ. We spend so much time focusing on the sin and the judgment of it that we lose sight of what we’re really supposed to be here doing.

LOVING PEOPLE.

We get so wrapped up in DOING that we forget the LOVING part of the process. We do our good works and we pat ourselves on the back, check it off our list and then turn around and scowl at the guy walking out of the bar. We cluck at the single mom who had one bad night and is paying for it for the rest of her life. Instead of wrapping our arms around her and offering to watch her kid for her so that she can take a break and try to regain her sanity. (I spent most of last week as a single mom while my husband was away on a business trip; I honestly don’t know how you gals do it! My hat is off to you!!!)

If we would just bother to read our Bibles once in a while we would notice that the love of Christ compels us to do good works. It covers over a multitude of sins, it bears all things, but most of all it’s the greatest thing that remains when everything is said and done. Love is greater than faith and hope. So while we can preach ourselves blue in the face on being faithful and hoping in Christ, the reality of the matter is that LOVE IS WHERE THE POWER IS!!! If faith the size of a mustard seed can move mountains, what can a little bit of love in the form of a smile and a wave do?

I know you know what I mean. Think about a day where you were up against the wall, you could feel the blindfold over your eyes and you could hear the distinctive click of the firing squad taking aim. And then someone you don’t even know smiled and waved at you. But it wasn’t just any smile; it was the kind of smile that goes all the way to their eyes. Or better yet, the smile of someone who actually does know you. The kind of smile that lights up their entire being when you walk into the room because they’re genuinely happy to see you. Those are the kinds of smiles that can literally change your entire day. They’re not hard, but they’re amazingly powerful. The power of Love taking the form of a smile, in Jesus’ name.
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Love Letters

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1 Peter
“Let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God’s sight is very precious.”
A wise person once told me, when I had writers block, to be still and let God write love letters to you for awhile. So that’s what I did today. I went through and picked out my favorite pictures from this week, my love letters from the LORD.
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Writers Block

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Obadiah
Well, I can’t say this happens all that often but today I seem to be speechless. Everything I try to say gets stuck somewhere between my brain and my hands. Go figure.

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Keep it Simple

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Numbers 35:9-36:13
It’s a short word of the day today so I figured it’d be a good day to make this short. Have a blessed day!

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Jesus is There, Stage by Stage


Numbers 32:1-35:8

“Moses wrote down their starting places, stage by stage,” Numbers 33:2

For the last four years I’ve been writing down my journey, stage by stage. Each stage has been unique and filled with… chaos; at least it felt like it at the time anyway. But to look back on each of them, it wasn’t chaos at all. It was measured steps towards the place where I find my feet today. Sometimes the hardest thing to do is start something new. It’s scary and unfamiliar, yet holds the very potential to be a fantastic adventure! IF we let it become that to us.

Life is full of chaos, uncertainties. It’s filled with pain and heartaches that can’t even be put into words. There are some lessons that just can’t be taught in outlines and sermons, they have to be felt, experienced, LIVED.

Jesus came so that we might have life, and have it to the FULLEST. But what is that? What does it mean? To me, right now, it means that Jesus has given me the opportunity to enjoy each moment of this life, even the ones that hurt. In the pain, there is a joy. It’s hard to describe except to say that it’s there.

There’s something about being sad that feels good. It feels good to have emotions and to let them out. It feels good to cry until you can’t possibly cry anymore. It even feels good to be mad, sometimes, but not all the time, that’s just a poison. No matter what happens, life is meant to be lived, not just survived. That involves risks, and faith. It requires patience and trust. It takes time and love. Life is HARD, but it’s GOOD and shouldn’t be wasted. Life involves loving people without abandon. Which means that there will be times when those people you’ve been tender with will turn sharp and cut you to the quick. But that doesn’t mean that the relationship is irreparable.

Even though all relationships have a shelf-life, that doesn’t mean that both parties have to leave the relationship wounded. There is always forgiveness. There is always hope, because there is always Jesus, our eternal King and High Priest.

No matter what wounds you have suffered from the hand of your Beloved, Jesus can heal them. You need only to ask Him, He is MORE than willing to do it. Although it may take more time than you’d like. Wounds heal in layers. Jesus can take you on the adventure of a lifetime where you find yourself over the rainbow in a world you’ve never seen before with more color and life than you’ve ever imagined. No, life with Jesus isn’t all flowers and lollipops. There are some really hard knocks that come with the territory. But those knocks are never suffered alone. Not ever. And that’s the beauty of Jesus. He’s not a religion, or a denomination. He’s a person; a real live person who simply wants to be your friend. He wants to hold your hand through the tough times and shout for joy with you in the fun times. He wants to sing with you when you’re happy and cry with you when you’re sad.

A lot of times Christians make life with Jesus a lot more technical and difficult than it really is. Christianity isn’t a religion, it’s a friendship. It’s as simple as that.

“No longer do I call you servants, for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from My Father I have made known to you. You did not choose Me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in My name, He may give it to you.” John 15:15-16

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Ordinary Work/Granny Square Picture Tutorial


Numbers 28:16-31:54

“You shall do no ordinary work” Numbers 28:18, 25, 26; 29:1, 12 & 35

It started to become fairly obvious to me that God was trying to make a point when I ran across the fourth “you shall do no ordinary work”. Here I am writing about identity and our purpose in life and smack dab in the middle of Numbers in the sections on feast days God starts speaking to me about calling.

Yes. In the context of the reading the work they are speaking of IS regular, ordinary, every day work. And realistically, that’s what I’m talking about too. HOWEVER, that’s not where the reality of life stops. So often we love to draw a line between our God and our world of work. We work in the world and God doesn’t associate with the world right? WRONG! If that statement were true there would have been no Crucifixion!

No, Christ came into the world to save the world by doing something that many others were doing in a way that only He could do it. THAT’S a calling! It’s something that that God created you to do; and to any ordinary onlooker you may look like any other person doing your job. And in that aspect you are just like everyone else. But that’s where the similarities stop. No one can do your job the way YOU do it. NO ONE.

There were all kinds of Rabbi’s when Jesus was teaching and preaching. But there was only ONE Jesus.

Sure, there may be millions of other teachers out there, but there isn’t a single other teacher out there just like YOU! Sure there are millions of other people out there that crochet, but none of them are just like YOU! Yup, there are even millions of moms out there, doing exactly what you’re doing today. But none of them are just like YOU.

So today, while you’re busy at your “ordinary work” think about this; when you’re the one doing the work, it’s anything BUT ordinary!

Granny Square Tutorial:


Abbreviations:

Chain (CH)

Double Crochet (DC)

Slip Stitch (SL)

1 Granny Stitch (GS) = DC 3, CH 1 worked into the CH 1 space from the previous round

Initial CH 3 counts as 1 DC

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Start with a magic ring

 

 

and chain (CH) 3.

Round 1:

DC 2, CH 1, 

GS 3 more times into the magic ring. 

Pull the magic ring closed, 

It will look like this:

SL to first CH 3. 

CH 3, 

turn.

Notice where the gaps are because this is where you’re going to be working for the rest of the square.

Round 2:

DC 2, CH 1, GS 1 in the first CH 1 space from the previous round. 

GS 2 in each of the rest of the CH 1 spaces from the previous round [there are 3 left],

SL to first CH 3. 

[You can finish off and be done here in this round if you want small Granny squares. Or you can keep going for larger ones.] CH 3, turn [if still going]. Skip down to the end if you’re finishing off.* Now my blanket’s squares don’t have a third round, it’s a baby blanket and I wanted to keep them small. So I don’t have any pictures for this next round. 😦 Sorry. However, if you would like to make your squares larger this is how you would do it.

Round 3-?:

Here is where you have to start paying attention to where the corners are. If you’re working on a side: work 1 GS into the CH space. If it’s a corner: work 2 GS into the CH space. Work around until you reach the beginning, SL to first CH 3. CH 3 & turn if you’re going on; finish off if you’re done.

*To finish off simply CH 1 and pull it TIGHT forming a knot in your work.

Trim your ends, leaving a little bit of a tail at the knot to be able to work it into the square so it won’t unravel on you when you wash them.

Tada! Happy crocheting my friends!

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The Nag

022414_0418_TheLetterIM1.jpgNumbers 25:1-28:15

“in proportion to its list”

I’m in a list season at the moment. I often do this. I feel like I’m behind the eight ball so I try to get organized. I make list upon list upon list of things that need done and for a time it helps tremendously. I get uber productive and accomplish many things. But then things start to slip and the list becomes my angry task master demanding, “More!” I go from being the master of the list to being its slave. If I’m unable to accomplish all the things on my list, it beats me and make me feel inferior. I begin to place my worth on how many things I crossed off my list today rather than the Word of God. If I got all my list accomplished then I was a “good girl” today and I can have a treat.

Ahhhh… but, if I only got one thing done, well, obviously I didn’t do a very good job today. I know there’s somebody out there vigorously nodding their head in agreement with me because they know exactly what I’m talking about. If that’s not you, well, lucky you. Will you email me and tell me how you do it?

Seriously. Any tips? Leave a comment below!

This past Sabbath I had a mission. Finish the blanket I’ve been working on. [I’m hoping to have instructions and pictures up tomorrow… but we’ll have to see how many fits my computer decides to throw before then.] I usually crochet on my Sabbaths, it’s kind of my meditation. Right now I’m doing a granny square blanket so it’s a constant, “1, 2, 3, chain… 1, 2, 3, chain… 1, 2, 3, chain…” It’s almost hypnotic. While crocheting I sit and catch up on my recorded shows. By the end of the day I am so relaxed I feel like butter and its HEAVEN!!!

Well, on this particular Sabbath I kept thinking of all the other things I had on my to do list. “The laundry needs folding and put away,” “the dishwasher needs emptied and filled again,” “the trash needs taken out.” And every time I would counter it with, “No. I’m crocheting today.” But they still kept coming, “the email needs answered,” “the kitchen table needs cleaned,” “the floor needs vacuumed,” “those papers need filled out.” “No! I’m crocheting today!” Each time the Nag got more and more insistent that I do something on my list rather than the one thing I needed most, REST.

Our culture so values productivity, and who can blame us? It feels GOOD to finish things and accomplish goals. I mean, it’s part of our human DNA. Adam was created and given… a job. He was given something to occupy his hands, time and talents. He was given a purpose. And just like Adam we have purpose too. It gives life meaning and enjoyment.

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There has to be a balance too. Adam was created on the sixth day. On the seventh, God rested from ALL His work declaring the seventh day holy. A Sabbath. A day of rest from work. God ended His week with rest. But Adam started His week with rest!

They  have scientifically proven that stress makes you sick. Well, a weekly Sabbath (also known as a Pajama Day) where you’re not allowed to leave the house, clean or work. But watch TV and movies, well, that’s a prescription for health!

Resting one day every week is NOT being lazy. Even when the accuser tries to get you to think it is. Taking a day off every week is taking care of your mind, body and soul. Hmmm… right now I can hear someone out there saying, “I don’t have time to take 2 hours off, let alone 24! I can’t afford to do that!”

My friend, you can’t afford not to!

We spend all our health trying to earn more money only to use that money to try to buy back our health! Except you can’t! A Sabbath rest does WONDERS, trust me! The revelations God has given me on these days is beyond compare, not to mention I am rarely ever sick.

Here’s one way to think about it:

A mom and her small child get in an airplane. There’s trouble and the cabin pressure changes to the point that the oxygen masks are needed. The mom’s first motherly instinct is to put the mask on her child first before putting on hers. Except in the time it takes to put her child’s mask on she passes out from low oxygen and now there is no one to help her child.

God has called YOU to help someone by doing something. However, if you’re not first helping yourself by caring for your temple, then there will be no one to help the people you were supposed to help. Because you’ve exhausted yourself to the point of being helpless yourself.

You’re not being lazy if you take one day off from work. You’re being MORE productive in that one day off than the other six combined! You know how? Because in that Sabbath day of rest you’re letting GOD do the work for you. And He’s more effective than you ever could be! I mean, He did make the entire universe in just six days. Can you do that?

 

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The Letter I Mentioned Yesterday


Numbers 22:1-24:25

First of all, sorry this is coming to you so late today. Sometimes life just has to come first.

Yesterday I mentioned finding myself curled up on the church floor sobbing because just that morning I had written a letter from God and then that afternoon was faced with the prospect of no longer writing and it sent me into a severe emotional “event”. Looking back at that powerful letter I realized that it just wouldn’t be right if I didn’t share it with you. So, without further ado, the letter:

Lord,

I am struggling to keep my head above water with all these things that I’ve committed myself to. I beg You to put Your desires for me in my heart. I want to want what You want. I want to love what You love. I want to want to walk in the GOOD paths. For my own sake and Yours. Lord, I still believe that You planted this love of writing and teaching into my heart. Yet, because of me following this dream, much hardship has befallen us.

“OH REALLY? HAS IT? OR, have you just felt like it did? Your house feels warmer this year and it has cost you less to heat it than any other year before. In one of the coldest winters on record! Your fridge and cabinet have always been full, as have your stomachs. I have been with you EVEY step of the way; through thick and through thin. You have never wanted for the things you NEED. And honestly, the things you wanted weren’t things you should want anyway. I have kept you so well guarded your entire life, you have no idea what want REALLY is. No, you may not have everything you want, but you CERTAINLY have everything you need and much much more. Furthermore, this “writing thing” as you call it, it’s saving your family, all of them. Bit by bit you will start to see the difference in them. They’re paying more attention than you know. But you need only one thing, Me. – and to pay CLOSE attention to ME. I will guide you; I will continue to guard you. I will provide for you more abundantly than you could ever dream and more. You have no idea how much I love and care for you. You have no clue how much I’ve done for you over the years and yet you doubt and fear, you cringe in anticipation of a pain that never comes.

You fear what you do not know, and without realizing it cause yourself undue grief. You need fear nothing for I hold everything – and you know it. You are worried about many things, but only one thing is needed, sit at My feet, listen to My words, lean on Me and My understanding, on My wisdom, on My knowledge and My goodness. I am the Good Shepherd, YOUR shepherd. I lead you beside still waters and green pastures – lie in them and be still; knowing that I AM GOD, YOUR God who loves you with an everlasting love deeper than you could ever fathom.

I am the keeper of the stars; I call them out, night after night, by NAME. I flung them into the sky – FOR YOU. Aren’t they beautiful? Yet their beauty cannot even come close to your beauty. They burn bright in the night sky, but you … you burn bright in an all together different kind of darkness. Your smile sparkles in this valley of the shadow of death. Your laugh rings free from the disaster that surrounds you. While the stars are beautiful,
they aren’t you. They are not My children, beloved beyond compare. No, the stars are a pretty little mobile in the sky for My precious baby girl – you.

You are My crowning achievement, the babe I knit together in the womb. You are My miracle, My masterpiece, My sonnet, My song. You, My precious girl, are Mine. And I love you. I always have, and I always will. I PROMISE.

No matter what you do, no matter what you say. No matter how far you try to run away, you’re still Mine. No matter what, I promise you that I will ALWAYS love you. And what’s more than that, I’ll always LIKE you too.

You see, it’s hard for you to separate the things you do from who you are. But that’s just it, they ARE two separate things. What you do does NOT make you who you are. Who you think you are determines what you do. That’s why it’s so CRITICAL for you to come to Me every day; because I will tell you who you REALLY are. You’re not who they say you are. You’re not necessarily even who you think you are. You are who I say you are. I am your maker, the creator. I made you with such intimate detail that even with all the technology and science of today they still haven’t found all the galaxies of mystery hidden inside you. And they never will. Heh, heh, heh.

Yet I know them all, from the hairs of your head, to the steps of your feet, I know them all. Why? Because I CARE FOR YOU! I care so deeply for you I could die.

No, wait,

I DID!

I would rather die the most excruciating death humanity could dish out, than to live one more moment without a relationship with you.

Yes, I want to be your God and your Father, but more than that I want to be your FRIEND. I don’t need more servants; I already have plenty of those. What I need are friends. People who share their lives with Me. People who share their hopes and dreams and desires with Me. People who share their devastations and pains with Me. I want to share in your joy. I want to be there for you in your grief and hurt. I want to be more than your God. I want to be your FRIEND, the lover of your soul. Because I do love your soul, every part of it. But you rarely let Me touch it. You barely ever show Me your soul because you’re so busy doing things for Me instead of with Me. You’ve gotten so busy that you’ve hardly had time to just be still and allow Me the opportunity to comb your hair and massage your weary shoulders. You’ve gotten so busy with the cares of life that you’ve forgotten how good I can be to you. You’ve been so concerned about getting things done that you’ve stolen My chance to do them for you and relieve a bit of that burden from your shoulders.

I love you.

I want to help you get through this. But I can’t do that if you don’t let Me. I want to be a part of your life. I want to help you. Please let me.”

Psalm 139 O LORD, You have searched me and known me! You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways. Even before a word is on my tongue, behold, O LORD, You know it altogether.

You hem me in, behind and before, and lay Your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high; I cannot attain it.

Where shall I go from Your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from Your presence? If I ascend to heaven, You are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, You are there! If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there Your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me. If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night,” even the darkness is not dark to You’ the night is bright as the day, for darkness is as light with You.

For You formed my inward parts; You knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are Your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from You, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in Your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.

How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I would count them, they are more than the sand. I awake, and I am still with you. Oh that you would slay the wicked, O God! O men of blood, depart from me! They speak against You with malicious intent; Your enemies take Your name in vain. Do I not hate those who hate You, O LORD? And do I not loathe those who rise up against You? I hate them with complete hatred; I count them my enemies.

Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting!

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I Am, Therefore I Do


Numbers 19:1-21:35

“Moses stripped Aaron of his garments and put them on Eleazar his son.” Numbers 20:28

First of all, I can’t tell you how GOOD it feels to be back at the keyboard again typing away to you!!! It seems as though our Oh So Sovereign God has planned these little “breaks” for me, so that by the time I get back to you after a month I’m so ready to be back it’s not even funny!

In this month of studying about identity and calling and Maslow’s Hierarchy of needs and the plethora of other things I studied this last month, I’ve learned something so critical to my life. Writing to you every day is my center. During the break I was still reading with you every day, but it just wasn’t the same. It wasn’t enough. It was like I was taking the reading and swallowing it whole without chewing it first and really savoring it’s flavor and depth. I’ve missed that. I’ve missed YOU.

Although I can’t see your faces as you read, I know that you’re out there. Listening and paying attention. Some more than others perhaps, but still, you’re there. And that matters to me.

This month has been a harried, frenzied, mess of a month. We’ve had more snow than I can think to count, which has made school schedules crazy, which has made my schedule crazy, which has made me crazy. Put on top of that my center being taken away, and well, it just spells disaster plain and simple.

If you’re a writer (which I think I may have finally come to terms with the Truth that I am) then you KNOW what I mean by calling it my “center”. It’s the thing that I do that comes from the very center of my being, the very core of my existence. It’s the thing that I do because I HAVE to. Not just because I want to, or because it’s what God’s called me to do, but because it’s the thing that if I don’t do it I’ll die. Maybe not physically, but the part of me that’s actually ME, that part will die.

There was a day this month where I found myself in the church all by myself sobbing in a huddled mass on the floor begging God not to take “this” away from me. Earlier that day I had written a letter from God to me, it had been my writing for the day, and it had meant so very very much to me. His words like honey on my fingers and health to the very bones of my existence. Suddenly I was faced with the prospect of that all being taken away from me in one fell swoop and I couldn’t bear the thought of it. And with choking sobs I wailed (I’m not exaggerating here either.) “God PLEASE don’t take that away from me!” to the point that I was concerned that the people in the insurance office next door would call the cops thinking that someone was being murdered next door. (OK, here I might be exaggerating a little bit, but I bet it made you smile.)

Here’s my point. I know that from this point on for as far as I can see into the future with this blog, I’m supposed to be talking about Identity in Christ. This month off I’ve delved deep into as many books as I could on the subject. I’ve searched psychology websites and more than anything, I’ve searched myself.

Awhile back, in Unshakable Foundations Make Fear Flee, I pointed out that Jesus gave us the commandment to “love your neighbor as yourself”. Yet how can we do that if we don’t first love ourselves? And that naturally leads us to ask the question, “who am I?” We can’t love ourselves if we don’t know who we are now can we?

In today’s reading we find its Aaron’s time to meet his maker. So Aaron, Moses and Aaron’s son Eleazar go up to Mount Hor and perform a ceremonial changing of the guard so to speak. Aaron is stripped of his priestly garments and they are placed on Eleazar’s body. Ceremonially he is being given the tools, the authority and the title of the next high priest of Israel.

Eleazar had been waiting for this moment for quite some time. Possibly with anticipation, perhaps with some anxiety; it’s a huge job, spiritually leading the entire nation. But it was what God had chosen him for. It was the job that God had blessed him with. It was his calling, and part of his identity. For him not to do it, would have killed him. And in those times, for him to not do it correctly would have literally killed him!

Perhaps, we find no satisfaction in our jobs because we fail to see the bigger picture of why doing that job is important for us, our families, our company and the society as a whole. All too often we see ourselves as this tiny little cog in the machine of society, small and insignificant. What we don’t realize is that when that tiny little cog isn’t working properly it can jam up the entire works. What if the person who made those clothes for Aaron, hadn’t made them. Then where would Eleazar be?

Yes, you may feel like you only play a small part in the production of life. But the reality of it is it’s an IMPORTANT part none the less. Without you playing the part you’ve been cast in, the production just wouldn’t be the same.

Case in point: I was in the Unsinkable Molly Brown in high school. And there was this guy, Florian. He had a bit part, maybe one, two lines at most. I think he might have been the butler. But he played the bajeepers out of that part to the point that he was, by far, everyone’s favorite character in the play!

Here’s my point, he may have had a small part, but he didn’t play it that way. He played his part as if it was the most important part in the play. And suddenly it became that way, all because HE treated it with respect. None of us will ever forget Florian in that part because NO ONE could have played it like HE did. None of us could have done a better job with that part that him. It was his and he owned it, small or not. What mattered was that he was part of the production. People talked about that play for WEEKS afterwards, and most of it was about Florian and how great he was in that part.

You may feel like you have a small part to play in the production of life. And in reality we all do. The main character is Jesus, we all take bit parts next to Him. But we’re still part of the play. And our part is just as important as the next guy. But the MOST important part is how we play the part. Do we take it seriously? Do we claim it as our own and make the most of it, or do we downplay its importance and allow others to make us feel like we’re less significant because our job isn’t as noteworthy as the next guy’s?

BY NO MEANS!!!

God has given you a part to play in the production of life. Not only is it important to society, it’s important to YOU that you play it with gusto and pride; because it’s YOURS. It’s your part to play. It’s your center, the thing that stems from the essence of your being. It’s the thing that if you don’t do it you’ll die inside. And that’s the worst death of all. It’s the thing that you do that makes you feel full and complete and good about yourself. It’s the thing that you do that helps you get through the days when you just want to give up. It’s the thing that the very thought of it being taken away makes you crumple up in a ball and wail.

Don’t know what that thing is? Well then let’s figure it out! Let’s appeal to your Maker and ask Him what it is that He made you to do! Let’s go to the Director and ask Him what part He’s asked YOU to play. And you know what the really awesome thing is? He will tell you. He is faithful and good and just and He will help you find that thing that thing that stems from the center of your being. I’m praying for you and He WILL help you find it.

But remember this. Your “do” doesn’t define you. You define your “do”. That’s identity.

I am, therefore I do.

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