“Moses wrote down their starting places, stage by stage,” Numbers 33:2
For the last four years I’ve been writing down my journey, stage by stage. Each stage has been unique and filled with… chaos; at least it felt like it at the time anyway. But to look back on each of them, it wasn’t chaos at all. It was measured steps towards the place where I find my feet today. Sometimes the hardest thing to do is start something new. It’s scary and unfamiliar, yet holds the very potential to be a fantastic adventure! IF we let it become that to us.
Life is full of chaos, uncertainties. It’s filled with pain and heartaches that can’t even be put into words. There are some lessons that just can’t be taught in outlines and sermons, they have to be felt, experienced, LIVED.
Jesus came so that we might have life, and have it to the FULLEST. But what is that? What does it mean? To me, right now, it means that Jesus has given me the opportunity to enjoy each moment of this life, even the ones that hurt. In the pain, there is a joy. It’s hard to describe except to say that it’s there.
There’s something about being sad that feels good. It feels good to have emotions and to let them out. It feels good to cry until you can’t possibly cry anymore. It even feels good to be mad, sometimes, but not all the time, that’s just a poison. No matter what happens, life is meant to be lived, not just survived. That involves risks, and faith. It requires patience and trust. It takes time and love. Life is HARD, but it’s GOOD and shouldn’t be wasted. Life involves loving people without abandon. Which means that there will be times when those people you’ve been tender with will turn sharp and cut you to the quick. But that doesn’t mean that the relationship is irreparable.
Even though all relationships have a shelf-life, that doesn’t mean that both parties have to leave the relationship wounded. There is always forgiveness. There is always hope, because there is always Jesus, our eternal King and High Priest.
No matter what wounds you have suffered from the hand of your Beloved, Jesus can heal them. You need only to ask Him, He is MORE than willing to do it. Although it may take more time than you’d like. Wounds heal in layers. Jesus can take you on the adventure of a lifetime where you find yourself over the rainbow in a world you’ve never seen before with more color and life than you’ve ever imagined. No, life with Jesus isn’t all flowers and lollipops. There are some really hard knocks that come with the territory. But those knocks are never suffered alone. Not ever. And that’s the beauty of Jesus. He’s not a religion, or a denomination. He’s a person; a real live person who simply wants to be your friend. He wants to hold your hand through the tough times and shout for joy with you in the fun times. He wants to sing with you when you’re happy and cry with you when you’re sad.
A lot of times Christians make life with Jesus a lot more technical and difficult than it really is. Christianity isn’t a religion, it’s a friendship. It’s as simple as that.
“No longer do I call you servants, for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from My Father I have made known to you. You did not choose Me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in My name, He may give it to you.” John 15:15-16