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All Things Work for Good

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Romans 9:1-12:21
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6 In his grace, God has given us different gifts for doing certain things well. So if God has given you the ability to prophesy, speak out with as much faith as God has given you. 7 If your gift is serving others, serve them well. If you are a teacher, teach well. 8 If your gift is to encourage others, be encouraging. If it is giving, give generously. If God has given you leadership ability, take the responsibility seriously. And if you have a gift for showing kindness to others, do it gladly. Romans 12:6-7

My friends, I have had a rough morning this morning. I mentioned to you last week to be expecting a time management post soon, well here it is and it’s nothing like I was expecting it to be! God had other plans for me today.
First of all, I had a REALLY hard time even waking up! I had this really weird dream that put me in a sour mood. By the time I finally was able to drag myself from the bed it was an hour later than I had expected to get up. MY plan had been to get up at 5, leisurely brew my coffee, fill out my covey model to do list, read my Bible, write my post, and then greet my family with a warm alert smile as they joined me in the land of the living. What actually happened was that I ended up being the last one out of bed, looking like the walking dead! I’m pretty sure I sounded like it too!
As I shuffled around the house feeling like my body parts were made of lead and not flesh the rest of the family moved around a little lethargically too. As we waved good-bye to Daddy from the living room window Gabe looked at the clock and said, “OH SHOOT!” He had exactly one minute to get his sweatshirt and backpack on, run two blocks down the street and get on the bus. He didn’t make it.
So now – because we know that this day had nothing to do with anyone else and everything to do about dear sweet little ole me, not only was I already an hour behind on MY schedule but with my son missing the bus I was going to be even further behind schedule because now I was going to have to drive him to school. Fabulous! Yet I didn’t give up my hope for a productive day, not yet anyway. That happened when my daughter missed her bus too!
So now my morning plans have been completely wrecked. (Keep in mind here, we live two minutes from both of their schools, literally TWO minutes.) Mommy, turned Oscar the Grouch from Sesame Street, grumbled as both children appologized most sweetly for missing their busses. I dropped them both off at school and decided that since MY schedule had already been thrown out the window I might as well keep going with it. I had planned on spending my morning working on homework and writing, BUT since I was out and about already I might as well stop by the local IGA and do the grocery shopping I had planned on doing this afternoon after school. As I got out of the car and scannd their ads on the side of the building I smacked my right hand on my rear view mirror – HARD. And if that hadn’t been enough there were other people in the parking lot that witnessed my pain and embarassment. siiiighhh… the day continues. However, many of the ingredients I needed were on sale so that’s good right? When I went to pick up the chicken that was on sale I got chicken juice all over my hands, ew ew ew ew ew ew ew EW!!!!!!! As I was leaving the check out the cashier thought she saw my paper bag ripping, turns out it wasn’t, but by the time I carried it to the car, it did. I just barely got it to the passenger’s seat before the handle completely gave way. When I got home and opened the passenger side door my purse fell out of the car and into the mud in the driveway – AWESOME!!! I brushed it off, put it over my shoulder trying to ignore the fact that I was probably getting my coat all dirty too. I loaded my arms back up with grocery bags, took two steps towards the front door and dropped my keys in the mud. “ACK!!!!! SERIOUSLY LORD!?!”
Some days just DON’T go the way you planned them. And you know what, that’s OK. Because “this is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it!” No, it didn’t go at all the way that I had planned, it went better than I had planned. I got an obviously needed extra hour of sleep, I got to spend an extra twenty minutes with both my dear sweet children, who were perfectly lovely this morning despite having a grumpy zombie mommy. I got to drive them to school, probably keeping them from hearing/doing naughty things on the bus. I got my shopping done, including buying party supplies that I hope I get to use at school today as a reward for some great test grades. Not only did I get a week’s worth of groceries this morning in record time I got them on sale and from friends. And then, after I got back home and was text venting about my morning to my husband, I got to spend a little extra time with him making me laugh this morning in order to cheer me up. And then, because God is this kind of good, He pointed out to me all these good things that He had given to me this morning according to HIS plans that I would have missed if I had followed MY plan. And by pointing all these things out, He also gave me something to write about for my time management post. Which is a really good thing too because I had really been drawing a blank on what it was going to say!
All too often we make plans and then get frustrated and upset when they go awry. We shouldn’t. What’s the point of getting angry about something you have no control over? Will I try again tomorrow to have that ideal morning with the coffee steam swirling and the heavens singing that morning song that plays in commercials where there are happy morning people greeting each other with their coffee that’s good to the last drop? Sure! I try for that morning every day! But somedays, God has something better planned and I need be able to accept that His better might just look like my “worse”, but that doesn’t mean that it is worse. Sometimes my “worse” is really for my “best”!

“For in all things, God works for the good of those who love the Lord and are called according to His purpose.” Romans 8:28

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Day 2 of my Spiritual Stay-cation

Right now I just want to explode! Which is a big deal because I am a temperate person, I don’t get like this usually. But all the little things are bothering me. The Christmas boxes cluttering the living room, the toys scattered throughout the house on the floor so I can’t even walk five feet without having to step over something. The dishes piled high in the sink and overflowing onto the counter and even onto the kitchen table! The laundry baskets brimming with dirty clothes (didn’t I just finish the laundry??? Oh, wait, that was last week, siiiigh…..) The two-dozen eggs I somehow left at the store that they didn’t find, the receipt from the store proving I bought two-dozen eggs that I can’t find (probably in the bag with the eggs)! The check for a copy of Dandelion Season that seems to have evaporated into thin air! Notes from the teacher on how Gabe should’ve had his sevens memorized by now “what’s wrong?” in other words, “Mom, I don’t think you’re doing your job…” (Ok, maybe that’s not what she meant, but it’s certainly how I’m taking it today!) Arg!

“Yes Lord, I do need a break, You are very right. I fought you on taking this “Spiritual Stay-cation” but I need to learn how to let these things go. I need to learn how to let Your grace be sufficient for me. But Lord, what if I don’t want that? What if I want to be self-sufficient? What if I want to do this all myself, You know, be independent. What happens then? Because this whole leaning-on-You thing and feeling like I keep running into brick walls, I don’t like it. I’m frustrated and tired and confused – I may have even gotten a concussion on that last wall I ran into. It didn’t move.”

“Well Little One, you are not alone in this desire for independence that’s for sure! Just look at Adam and Eve for example. They wanted to do things they’re way too. When they ate that fruit they did so much more than disobey a rule – My one and only rule. They decided to take matters into their own hands. They chose to stop leaning on Me and trusting Me to take care of them and instead take care of themselves. The only problem with that is that they can’t That has been the whole point of most of history, proving to you that you need Me.”

“But Lord, I know that already. I know I need You…”

“Ah, but you’re not living like you do. When you know you need me then you’re constantly reaching out for Me, searching for Me, you’re not doing that at all. You’re walking like you know what I want you to do but you’ve never really spent any time asking Me what My will is. You haven’t spent any time searching My Word for answers to your burning questions, you just assume an answer to them or let them continue burning in your mind, frustrating you. Use some Living Water to put out those un-needed fires girl! Yes I want you to be on fire, but for the right reasons! I want you to be on fire for Me. For My love, for My goodness. If you’re doing things on your own and expecting things to happen in your way and your timing then you’re not trusting in Me but in yourself. You’re just asking Me to place My stamp of approval and blessing on something YOU did. Why would I do that when I want everything to call attention to what I did, for you and everyone else.”

“Lord, I’m sorry, I didn’t realize that’s what I was doing. Father, please forgive me. Please help me to trust You and Your strength and not in my own. Please help me to actually seek You first in everything I do and not just pretend to.”

“My love, I know that there are times in your life, like right now, where it doesn’t seem to you like I’m doing anything. But in reality I am. When you are in the grocery store with your children and you stop the cart to read a label or compare prices; to your children it seems like you’re just standing there, but you’re not are you? You’re reading, you’re studying to see if the product is worth the cost. You’re comparing one product with another to see which one will be the best product for your family. The healthiest product for the lowest cost. Well, that’s what I’m doing too. At no point in your life am I sleeping or unaware of your situation. At no point in our journey through time together have I stopped nor am I doing nothing. In fact nothing could be farther from the truth. When you’re shopping at what point are you truly more active? When your feet are moving you toward the next thing on the list or when you are making that next best choice for your family? And compare that to what your children are doing while they are waiting for you to move. They’re wandering farther and farther away from the cart. They’re touching things on the shelves, they’re getting in other people’s way, they’re grabbing things and putting them into the cart without asking first. In other words they get bored and into trouble. When you’re waiting for Me to move are you like that? Do you wander aimlessly, touching things you shouldn’t? When it’s time to move on to the next thing on your list what do you do? Do you call out to your children, gathering them together so that you can move on together as a family? Of course you do! Please realize that at no point will I ever truly leave you behind. Just like you may threaten to leave your child in the store because they’re not following you closely enough, I too do the same thing. There are moments/seasons in your life where it seems like you’re not going anywhere or doing anything and then you hear my call and you’re having to run to keep up with Me. Just like you would never dream of ACTUALLY leaving your child in the store, you ARE however serious about moving on and so am I. When I say it’s time to move on, it’s time to move on, so you’d better be movin’ it girl!”

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