Writing Through the Bible in a Year

Live Boldly

Today’s reading: Acts 3:16-6:15

Then Peter, filled with the Holy Spirit, said to them… Now when they saw the boldness of Peter and John, and perceived that they were uneducated, common men, they were astonished. And they recognized that they had been with Jesus. Acts 4:8 & 13

Being with Jesus, well, it changes you! Look at Peter! His story starts in Matthew 4:18-22 he’s peacefully casting his fishing net into the Sea of Galilee when this Rabbi walking along the shore shouts out to him, “Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men.” Most of us today would laugh at a suggestion like that. We’re busy typing away at our computers at work, when a pastor we’ve only ever heard of, walks by our cubicle and says, “Hey, come travel the world with me and you can save many souls for the kingdom. You won’t get paid much, if anything, but we’ll be doing great things!” We might consider his offer, but let’s be honest; most of us wouldn’t actually drop everything and just go with him into ministry. We would go home and at least pray about it for a week or two! But not Peter! It says that he immediately dropped his net and followed Jesus. He’d just been offered the opportunity of a lifetime and he wasn’t about to pass it up! In that culture, to be a Rabbi was the height of position. Every boy went to school to learn the scriptures but only the best students went on to study them and actually become Rabbi’s, the rest of the boys went on to do the family trade. The fact that Peter was a fisherman tells us that he had not made the cut in school to become a Rabbi or even a Rabbi’s student. But then here was this new young Rabbi that everyone was talking about and he was offering Peter this position of honor to come be his disciple, Peter would have been crazy not to accept it! So he jumped right out of his boat and went to Jesus’ side to follow Him throughout the country and preach the word of God.

In Matthew 14:22-33 we watch Peter step out of yet another boat to follow Jesus, yet this time it is much more dramatic. The wind is roaring, the waves are crashing and Jesus is standing atop of them beckoning Peter once again to follow His example. And Peter does so fearlessly. While the rest of the disciples are terrified that Jesus is a ghost, Peter speaks up “Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water.” He said, “Come.” So Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water and came to Jesus. Now I ask you my friend, if YOU were out in the middle of a lake and saw your pastor walking on the water and everyone around you thought he was a ghost, would the first words out of your mouth be “Hey, if it’s really you, tell me to come out there and stand on the water with you!”? I’m guessing no… but then again, Jesus wasn’t a Rabbi like all the other Rabbi’s either. But still, even after seeing all the miracles they had already seen up to that point I still don’t know that I would have asked to go out there too.

Through the story of the gospels we learn that Peter is an outgoing disciple. When no one else is brave enough to speak up and answer Jesus’ question of who they think He is (Matthew 16:13-20), Peter is the only one to pipe up with “You are the Christ, the Son of the living God“. Again, while all the other disciples are struck speechless Peter is brave enough to speak. You kind of start to get the feeling that Peter really didn’t care what anybody but Jesus thought about him. Hmmm… there’s a heavy truth right there.

But then later we get to the last few hours before Jesus’ crucifixion, and He tells His disciples that they will all “fall away” from Him in the coming hours. There’s Peter again, the first to pipe up “Though they all fall away because of you, I will never fall away.” (Matthew 26:30-35) Yet Jesus explains to him that indeed, he too will deny Jesus. And lo and behold, a few short hours later, although he was one of the few that followed Jesus to His “trial” he still denied knowing Him, not once or even twice, but three times. Peter was so overwhelmed by the reality of what he had done to his Lord that he left the courtyard and “wept bitterly” (Matthew 26:69-75). After all this time of following Jesus, Jesus had become so much more than a mentor and teacher to Peter; He had become his role model, his friend, his brother. Peter loved this man with all his heart, soul and mind. At this point Peter was closer to Jesus than anyone else on the face of the earth and he had just denied that relationship three times! Not that it’s quite the same, but, it would be like if my husband was wrongfully arrested, beaten and was being unjustly tried and I stood there and said, “Nope, don’t know the man.” right within his ear shot. It would break his heart! And I suggest to say that although Jesus knew that he would do it, Peter’s denial broke the heart of Jesus as well. And if Peter’s story ended here it would be a terrible ending! But there’s good news, his story doesn’t end here.

Peter went back to fishing after his denial of Jesus in an obvious effort to lay aside that life of ministry. The pain he had caused himself was too much for him to bear. But God is merciful and just and oh-so-loving. We find this part of the story in John 21 where Peter, Thomas, Nathanael, James, John and two other disciples go fishing and are once again in a boat together out on the water. They fished all night but caught nothing… until a man came walking along the shore and asked them if they had caught any fish and then suggested that they cast their nets out on the right side of the boat. Now, if they’ve been fishing all night, don’t you think they’ve tried that already??? But they did it anyway without a word of doubt and what-da-ya-know, fish! At this point John turns to Peter and says excitedly “It’s the Lord”! Peter, without a doubt in his mind, doesn’t walk away from the boat, he doesn’t step out onto the water in faith, he throws himself into the sea! He flings himself toward the lover of his soul without a moment’s hesitation. Second chances like this don’t come along very often, if ever, and he certainly wasn’t about to miss this one! The rest of the disciples bring their haul of fish to the shore where Jesus and Peter are waiting for them with breakfast. After breakfast Jesus turns to Peter and says

Simon, son of John, do you love me more than these?” He said to Him, “Yes, Lord; you know that I love you.” He said to him, “Feed my lambs.” He said to him a second time, “Simon, son of John, do you love me?” He said to Him, “Yes, Lord; You know that I love You.” He said to him, “Tend my sheep.” He said to him the third time, “Simon, son of John, do you love me?” Peter was grieved because He said to him the third time, “Do you love me?” and he said to Him, “Lord, You know everything; You know that I love you.” Jesus said to him, “Feed my sheep. Truly, truly, I say to you, when you were young, you used to dress yourself and walk wherever you wanted, but when you are old, you will stretch out your hands, and another will dress you and carry you where you do not want to go.” (This He said to show by what kind of death he was to glorify God.) And after saying this he said to him, “Follow me“.

Three times Peter denied his relationship with Jesus and three times Jesus asked him “Do you love me?“. Jesus gave Peter the opportunity to repent from each denial. Jesus followed each profession of Peter’s love with a command, “Feed my lambs”, “Tend my sheep” and “Feed my sheep”. The Lord Jesus was leaving soon and He knew it. So He was asking Peter to take over for Him in the ministry, to spread the good news of Jesus and to make disciples of all the nations. Jesus asks us the same question, “Do you love Me?” and if we reply “Yes Lord” then His command to us is to feed and tend to His children. He is asking us to get out of the boat! To get out of that familiar place of comfort and to leap into the sea with faith and trust in Him that He will not only catch and carry us, but that He will go before us and do all the heavy lifting. The Christian life is a hard life, it’s not easy or painless, but it is one-hundred percent totally worth it!

In Acts 2:14-41 Peter delivers his first recorded sermon. He has obediently waited on the gift of the Holy Spirit to come down on the disciples and what is the first act of business for Peter, a sermon to his peers to explain what on earth is going on. This man who loved Jesus so passionately and was so bold in his faith from the very beginning is the one who is again the first to speak up and explain to the crowd what is happening around them. He explains to them who Jesus is and why that should be a big deal to them.

In today’s reading we find Peter speaking again, this time it’s because he’s under arrest for healing a lame beggar. In chapter four verse eight it tells us that Peter was “filled with the Holy Spirit” while he was delivering his speech to the Sadducees and at the end of his speech they looked at him and saw that he was a fisherman. They knew that he had not gone through the education and training of a normal Rabbi, and yet the profound words that came out of his mouth and the power-filled deeds that came from his hands suggested otherwise. There was something different about this man called Peter… he had been with Jesus. It’s the only explanation. Jesus changes us, He just does. Time with Him changes us. We may be common simple people, stay-at-home moms with no formal theological training, but time with Jesus changes you. It transforms you to be something that even you couldn’t have imagined. On the outside, you may still be that common everyday mom, but on the inside, you’re a Queen; HIS Queen, His bride, His wife, His lover, His friend.

Live boldly in the Spirit today my friend, you have spent time with The King, you have been transformed, no go out and live like it!

 

Categories: Writing Through the Bible in a Year

Waiting for God to ACT

Today’s reading is Acts 1-3:15.

“It is not for you to know times or seasons that the Father has fixed by His own authority.” (Acts 1:7)

I can’t tell you how excited I was this morning at 5 AM when my alarm went off announcing the fact that it was time for me to get up only a few short hours after falling asleep. To be honest, it was all I could do to drag myself out of bed to turn the alarm off, and for a moment I seriously considered hitting the snooze and going back to bed, but my heart wouldn’t let me… and neither would my bladder. (Thank You Lord.) As I sat in the cold bathroom reading my morning devotion, that I honestly can’t remember a word of right now, the fog of sleep started to drift lazily away from my head and I remembered just why I was getting up so early this morning. My writing challenge starts today! God has challenged me to find Him in my life every day; then write about how He applied His word in my life during the day. After remembering that getting up wasn’t quite so hard anymore! So as my heart rushed to my desk, my feet stumbled sleepily out to my bible and computer waiting expectantly to both be opened and used at this early hour. The stillness in the house was bliss for a busy mom who is always on the go. And as I cracked open this brand spankin’ new ESV Bible it begged to be snuggled into the rocking chair behind me with a blanket over my cold legs, so I agreed that we should move to a slightly cozier spot where this new book and I could get a little more familiar.

For years I’ve held onto the hope that I would be able to read through the entire bible at some point in my life, but I have yet to do it. Then not so long ago I heard a story of a man who read through a new bible every year. As he read he would make notes and comments in the margins of the bibles, making them his own, creating a kind of documentary or record of his life and how those scriptures had applied to him at the moment that he was reading them. Then after the year was over he would then gift those bibles to his children to keep as a legacy, a piece of their father’s life. That story struck me in its genuineness and romance; in the significance of a father’s handwritten heartfelt thoughts captured between the margins and those beloved words of our Savior, what a gift for a child to receive! Today, I’ve gotten to start my own adventure. My new little three dollar ESV Bible already has two and a half pages all marked up! So many notes in just one short day! But OH what a story it already tells. The scriptures themselves also tell of a new beginning! (How cool is that???)

Acts chapter one starts with an ending. It starts with Jesus leaving earth and ascending into heaven with the instruction to His followers to “wait for the promise of the Father” (Acts 1:4). I just find that funny that this story starts with waiting… and yet so does my story today. Well, sort of anyway. I’ve been waiting for a lot of things to happen in my ministry, waiting for God to act, waiting for God to provide, waiting for the answers to my multitude of questions, and honestly looking for all of it in the wrong places. I completely lost sight of where my focus really should be! I was so focused on the ministry and the waiting and the providing and the questions that I forgot about WHY I was seeking those things! God really used the stillness of this morning to remind me that it really doesn’t matter as much what I do in that quiet time with Him, as long as it’s a quiet time WITH Him! I’ve been still and I’ve prayed lately, but it wasn’t to get to know Him better, it was to get my questions and requests heard and answered in a timely manner… in MY time.

This weekend the most amazing thing happened to me! Someone turned the lights off on me while I was in a public restroom. I know, you’re thinking that’s amazing!?! But it was; not for what happened, but for how God used it for me. I’ve been busily planning my very first conference where I will be the speaker all day long. Thirteen hours, it’s intimidating beyond words. Not only am I teaching, but I’m planning too. Phone calls, ordering supplies; you name it I’ve been working on it! All the while freaking out about HOW I’m going to get all the people to get it all done like the vision God’s given me for it. I’ve been freaking out about what He wants me to teach. I’ve been freaking out about where this conference will take place and who will be there. Basically, I’ve just been plain old freaking out. So much so that it’s been leaking into my family life as well!

Case in point Friday was grocery day for me. I had planned my menu for the next two weeks including breakfast, lunch, dinner even some snacks! Every square on my planner was filled. Then I transferred my shopping list into my phone complete with costs and everything. I had ALL my shopping bases covered. I had my plan and I was going to follow it to the letter… until God threw the proverbial wrench into the works.

I was an hour and a half into my three-hour trip when my phone died! I’m not even kidding you I could almost see my battery running out as I held my shopping plan in my palm. And when that screen was plunged into darkness my plan flew out the window and I was forced to shop blind. I was forced to roam the aisles searching for things that I remembered being on my list, and HOPE that I didn’t miss anything that I would need for my fully planned menu. I’ll admit, there were several times that I stopped on the side of an aisle, bent over my daughter pretending to talk to her and prayed desperately for God to lead me to what I needed. I felt like I was flailing in the dark, groping for clues to where I was supposed to go next, buy next. My groceries cost much more than what I was expecting, but I also came home with more than I needed too. And if I did forget something, I can always improvise; I’m really good at that.

Well, Saturday, in the public restroom I was again praying about the groceries. Wracked with guilt about spending so much and having so much trouble trusting God to lead me to the things I needed. I was sitting there silently pleading with God to help me understand while doubts about my shopping decisions and conference plans swirled through my head. When suddenly the “last” person to leave the room thought she was the LAST person in the room. So she turned off the light and I was suddenly plunged into… light! Although I sat in darkness the LORD was my light. He said to me, “One step at a time”. And He reminded me, I need to let go of my determination to know ALL the details and TRUST that when I get to that step He will lead me in the way that I should go. That I need to continue walking toward that sliver of light coming through the crack under the door and trust that it’s the direction HE wants me to go in.

As much as I desire the comfort and control of having every minute planned, I must leave space for the Holy Spirit to work! I must leave space for trust and faith. Otherwise I’m simply crowding Him out. And you know what always happens? MY plans fail. My plans fall through. My plans frustrate me because my plans aren’t happening. When I pray “Thy will be done” and then determine to do my own thing without ever consulting Him first disasters occur; and I get frustrated and angry. Which spills onto my family and they had nothing to do with it!

I have to let go and let God do what He needs to do. I have to allow Him to hold the remote and let Him pick what I watch… or let Him take my phone and let Him pick what we eat and determine how much it will cost. And I have to trust that He loves me enough to choose food that will be good for us and perfect for our schedule. I have to trust that He loves me enough to make sure that it will cost exactly as much as it needs to. Point of fact, my groceries cost precisely the amount of money that I had with me at the time. I didn’t want to spend all the money I had on groceries, that had not been my plan at all, but God was making a point. The point He’s been trying to make for weeks now. The point I pray that I have fully grasped now after my experience in the dark bathroom. The point that I am NOT in control and that I need to relax and simply enjoy the ride. This isn’t work, it’s not a job, it’s a relationship and a really wonderful one at that! I need to stop stressing and start trusting… but it’s so hard!

I like my independence. I am proud of my ability to take care of myself. I like the fact that God has called me to be a teacher. But I think I’ve forgotten one of the biggest and most important parts of being a teacher. I don’t have to know all the answers, I only have to know how to direct the students to where to find them.

One step at a time

I don’t need to know all the answers.

I don’t need to know all the steps.

I don’t even need to know all the ingredients.

I only need to know God and His goodness.

I only need to know that GOD is there with me in the darkness.

I only need to know that God IS there holding my hand and guiding my steps and making them firm.

I only need to know that God is THERE speaking to my soul even when my ears can’t hear.

I only need to know that He is HERE loving me even when I can’t feel it.

Beloved, GOD IS HERE.

-Tamar Knochel

Categories: Acts, Writing Through the Bible in a Year

I’m Writing Through the Bible in a Year, Wanna Join Me?

So, I’ve been really praying and evaluating lately about the blog and just how exactly I wanted to use it, when out of the clear blue sky God pops this idea into my head. “Write through the bible alphabetically in a year.” I’ll read a section every morning, and then at some point during the day blog about how God has worked that day’s scripture into my life. God’s word is alive and active in the lives of His children and that is the point that I want to make with this project. So many critics say that the Bible is an archaic book that doesn’t apply to modern-day life, but as every daily reader already knows, this is not the truth.

If other people want to jump in with me on this divine challenge, well then GREAT! This blog is my accountability partner, with my calendar on the side as my checklist for daily blogging and reading in the Word. I think this will be fun!

Tomorrow we start, first thing in the morning! LET’S DO THIS THING!

 

Our Reading Plan: 2 1/2 pages per day

I will be reading this year in the English Standard Version since it’s not a version I’m that familiar with. To figure out how much to read per day I flipped to Revelation 22 and looked at the page number, it was 895. Then I took that number and divided it by 365 and got 2.45, or 2 pages and one column per day of reading. Seriously, that’s it! Only two and a half pages of reading a day! Could this be any simpler?

Next I flipped to Acts (the first book of the bible alphabetically) and our first day’s reading will be Acts 1:1 – 3:15!

 

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