“So will I ever sing praises to Your name, as I perform my vows day after day.” Psalm 61:8
Well, I announced on Sunday that I was going on a phone fast and that I would keep you abreast of how it was going. I can honestly say that after one day, it’s not going well. I knew it was bad, but didn’t realize how badly linked I am to my phone and the immediate gratification of thinking about someone/something and grabbing my phone and searching it or texting them. I was supposed to leave my phone untouched until lunch; I took an early “lunch”… but didn’t eat. I hadn’t decided before hand if I was going to allow myself to “call out” or to use any apps on the phone during the time it was supposed to be off limits. It ended up that by the end of the day I had picked up and used my phone multiple times. Not good.
I was having trouble focusing because I kept thinking about what was going on with my phone. Had someone just called, did they need me? There were several times that I allowed myself to pick up the phone in order to do something else, but really I was picking it up to see if there had been any activity, there hadn’t been.
Typing this all out and reading it is making me realize, not just how connected I’ve been to my phone and the people on it, but how much I have allowed my phone to determine my worth and importance. It had never crossed my mind before that my phone might possibly be connected to my identity, but now that I think about it, what’s the first thing we do when we get a new phone? Personalize it!!! We make the outside reflect our personality and we change the ringtones and message alerts to sounds that are pleasing to us. We take that new phone and transform it into our own likeness; we take it from being like every other phone out there on the market, to being unique.
This is going to be a very interesting week indeed.
Obviously I could use your prayers through this I’m addicted to my phone and I need help. Looks like I’m going to be giving my Self-Control muscles a workout this week. 😉
God bless you all, I love you!!!