2 Corinthians

Never Enough

Do you ever feel like you’re never enough? Like no matter how hard you try, no matter how hard you work, it’s never enough? I don’t know about you, but I certainly feel that way… often. And honestly, right now I’m really tired of feeling that way.
I’m never going to be pretty enough, I’m never going to be a good enough mom. I’m never a good enough wife. I’m not a good enough teacher. No matter what I do it will never be enough. At least not in my eyes.
But there is one person who you will always be enough, Jesus. In His opinion, just the way you are is enough for Him. Or did you not know that you are His workmanship. You have been created in His image, not perfect on your own but perfect in your union with His perfection.
It’s incredibly easy to get down on ourselves when we’re functioning in our own power, especially when we are functioning in our own power for a long period of time. Eventually we run out of steam, usually far short of the goal throwing our imperfections and our “not enough-ness” into perfect view. We can’t reach the goal without Him. And we were never meant to.
Our “not enough-ness” was crafted into our being from the very beginning! He didn’t make us to be self sufficient, He made us to be dependent on His Grace!
Paul ran into a similar situation that I think, I know, I needed to hear today.
“Because of the extravagance of those revelations, and so I wouldn’t get a big head, I was given the gift of a handicap to keep me in constant touch with my limitations. Satan’s angel did his best to get me down; what he in fact did was push me to my knees. No danger then of walking around high and mighty! At first I didn’t think of it as a gift, and begged God to remove it. Three times I did that, and then he told me,

My grace is enough; it’s all you need.
My strength comes into its own in your weakness.

Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ’s strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become.” – 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

Can we get to the point where we’re OK with not being enough for ourselves, where His Grace is sufficient for us? I have times when I have the confidencde that Paul speaks of in this passage. And then I have the, knees on the ground, moments like this. I relapse. But Jesus recovers me. Praise God! He loves us!

Categories: 2 Corinthians, Insecurity | 4 Comments

TODAY is the Day of Favor!

Today’s Reading: 2 Corinthians 11:1-13:14

Working together with Him, then, we appeal to you not to receive the grace of God in vain. For He says, “In a favorable time I listened to you, and in a day of salvation I have helped you.” Behold, NOW is the favorable time; behold, NOW is the day of salvation. 2 Corinthians 6:1-2

I’ve been telling you about my adventures with The Light and how it was never something that I sought out, but rather something that has been seeking me; pursuing me if you will. For months now I’ve caught glimpses of The Light, not knowing what it was and never really even noticing it until this last time. The event at my birthday really struck me. I fully embraced the Light only to have it once again snatched away from me but not before I got to truly experience the freedom and peace that it brought with it. And that’s what stuck with me, the freedom that I felt. Free like nothing on earth, free to make mistakes, free to be imperfect, free to be who God made me to be and not anything less than that! So while the Enemy had succeeded in sucking me back into his lie of darkness and the false light of the Law and legalism he couldn’t remove my experience of that freedom, albeit brief. He managed to deceive me and convince me that his lies were truth, but now there was the lingering question what is the real truth? You see the Enemy had me totally convinced that in order for God to bless me, or look upon me in favor I had to DO something, I had to be someone, I had to be perfect. He even had me convinced that in order for God to be able to protect me from the Enemy I had to protect myself with enough prayers, enough declaration of “in Jesus’ name”, enough anointing oil… all lies! All actions dependent on myself. The Enemy had me convinced that in order for God to respond to my prayers I had to DO something. LIE! I don’t have to DO anything, I need only to trust, to be still and know that HE is God, not me. You see all my actions, my works, were all depending on the Law. The principles laid out in Deuteronomy 28, when you do x, y & z, then you will be blessed. I was TOTALLY missing the point! Those principles will still work today, if we are successful in doing x, y & z, then we will be blessed. However, that is merely the glory of the Old Covenant; the transient glory that is still fading away. It’s not the permanent glory of Jesus’ blood sacrifice, it’s not the True Light, it’s the shadow of what was to come and HAS come already.

You see the Enemy is a sly guy. He knows that I’m stubborn and that I love Jesus. So he got to work in his craftiness early and taught me from childhood the Laws of the land. And not just to me, he’s done this all over our country; everywhere I look I see it. I couldn’t before though. In Exodus when we look at the story of Pharaoh’s reaction after each of the plagues we notice something. He bargains with Moses hoping that Moses will compromise his idea of freedom. From one plague to the next Pharaoh varies the degree of freedom that he is willing to allow the Israelites until finally he concedes defeat and allows them complete freedom.

Compromise is one of Satan’s favorite tactics, “OK, you can worship your God and your Jesus… but don’t mean any of the words of the songs you sing”. But this is where I am so proud of Moses and he gives us an extraordinary example to follow! When Pharaoh suggests that the Israelites present their sacrifices while still in the land of Egypt Moses counters with “It would not be right to do so, for the offerings we shall sacrifice to the Lord our God are an abomination to the Egyptians. If we sacrifice offerings abominable to the Egyptians before their eyes, will they not stone us? We MUST go three days’ journey into the wilderness and sacrifice to the Lord our God as He tells us.” While Pharaoh is willing to compromise, Moses is not! Way to go Moses! When God is working on breaking us out of the Enemy’s prison of lies Satan is going to do everything he can to get us to compromise, don’t listen to him! Do not compromise for anything less than God’s perfect Light in your life! It’s simply not worth it! I compromised for years by following the Law, to the letter at times, and it got me nowhere other than more pain, more suffering, more disappointment, more legalism and more chains. I was so focused on the “Thou shalt nots” that I completely missed the “Thou shall….” I cringe to think of the years of life and love and true freedom that I could have lived if only I had but known back then what I know now. However, God wasn’t done with me yet! No, He was simply using those years to teach me the real beauty of His grace.

While the Enemy has been clawing at me with doubt and tearing at my hope that God really can be so good as to have pardoned me once and for all, I have been clinging to what I KNOW. In HIM there is no darkness. His grace is radical! Radical like nothing I have ever seen or heard before. In HIM there is no darkness, no condemnation, no fear of rejection; only love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. In God there is Light and Truth and Hope and Faith.

Did you know that God has faith in you!?! I didn’t know that! But He must, because otherwise He wouldn’t ever use us to accomplish His plan! Think on that; ponder it for a moment won’t you. God has faith in YOU! Isn’t that amazing!?! God trusts YOU! And do you know what He is trusting you with the most? His heart. God has given you His heart. His living, beating, heart flowing with the lifeblood of Jesus Christ and placed it within You through His Spirit. How amazing is that? It’s a little intimidating to think about isn’t it? But don’t be intimidated, because that’s not His purpose. His purpose is for you to love Him back, to enjoy His presence in your everyday, mundane, doing the laundry, cutting the grass, washing the car life. It seems so simple, so… ordinary, so… un-god-like. Yet, that’s precisely what Jesus came to do! In the Garden of Eden, before the fall God walked with Adam and Eve. He had an intimate relationship with them where they talked, they were friends. God didn’t have a throne room where He sat and they came and knelt at His feet and worshipped Him with songs and wrote poems about Him. He came to them, in the garden, in the stillness, in the shade of the trees where the dew was still on the roses. He came to them. He brought Himself down to their level in order to be a part of their life. And they didn’t really know any different so they thought nothing of it. Until the listened to Satan.

Until they listened to the deceiver they were unaware that their nakedness was something to be ashamed of. They were naked and yet they had no problem sitting and talking to God Almighty for hours at a time. Although they knew that He had created them from the dust of the earth, it wasn’t something that they allowed to separate them from God, it was just who they were. Until they ate the forbidden fruit of knowledge.

Satan pointed their nakedness out to them, he pointed out to them that they were not equal to God, that they were not worthy of God’s companionship. By saying to them “you will be like God” he was pointing out the contrast between themselves and God. I truly believe to the depths of my soul that up until that point right there they did not realize that there was a difference between God and them. Why would they? He had come down to their level, he walked with them, and talked with them, they were made in His image – He LOOKED like them! Nothing about their circumstances would have told them anything different other than God made them to be His Beloved friends. When Jesus walked this earth in the flesh, the people that He grew up with had no clue who He is. If they had, they certainly would have treated Him a lot differently! I believe that in the Garden, Jesus was there with them. Today, we have that same opportunity to walk and talk with Jesus in a Garden of Relationship through our own lives. Jesus came as a MAN. Fully human. Yes, He is fully God, but if He wanted us to only see Him as God then He wouldn’t have come down here and put on the naked flesh of humanity. Jesus came to be KNOWN as human. He referred to Himself almost only as the Son of MAN. He wants us to know that He is like us, that we are like Him. He WANTS us to know Him as a person!

Right now I can feel the Enemy tearing at your souls to snatch away the hope that I’m trying to give you through Jesus. Don’t let Him fool you! Don’t let him deceive you any more. You are forgiven; you were made to be who you are. God made you and He doesn’t make mistakes He makes miracles! You are a miracle and you need to believe that with all your heart! Wrap your arms around that truth like a bear hug and don’t let go!!! God loves you, Jesus loves you. He loves you so much that He died for you. But even more than that, to this very day and time He LIVES FOR YOU!!! He lives to pray for you, He lives to love you with everything He has and everything that He is! Jesus loves you exceedingly abundantly above all that you could hope or imagine!!! Grasp that, cling to that, hold on to that and don’t let go. The Enemy is trying to snatch that away from you with his slimy claws of doubt and fear and judgment, ignore him! In Jesus name believe! Believe that God IS this good, that He does love you this much that He is for you and not against you! Believe it with all your heart your soul and your mind! Believe that God is willing to die AND live for you every day. Believe that He is willing to pour out His love and favor for you in the midst of this tortured life that we live. He is Light, within Him there is NO darkness. Believe that with all you have! I pray that God is showing you His pure Light right now, that you can FEEL it permeating your soul and bringing you the freedom and peace that He has to offer, the peace that passes all understanding and human knowledge. The peace that you just have to experience to know what He is. The Light that you just have to see to believe. Because once you’ve seen it, you WILL know it and all other light will pale drastically in comparison to it. I now understand why I have been compelled to take so many photographs of the sun lately, because it is the closest I can get to describing The Light. Because the Son is The Light. Oh my friend, do not let the Enemy deceive you any longer. Do not let him hold you captive in his Prison of Lies any longer, fight for your freedom! Pray for your freedom from lies. Ask God to show you His TRUE self. Seek the Holy Spirit’s guidance and don’t push Him back any longer. Satan has pulled the fluffy white wool of religious law and ceremony over our eyes for long enough, it’s time to tell him to go to hell and stay there! We want nothing to do with his lies any longer! Declare it my friend! In Jesus’ name, declare your freedom from lies, condemnation, judgment, falsehood, hardheartedness and declare your freedom to Truth and Light and Love and Peace!

In the plague of locusts God said to Pharaoh “How long will you refuse to humble yourself before Me? Let my people go, that they may serve Me.” My friend God is saying the same thing to Satan today on our behalf! “Satan, how long will you refuse to humble yourself before Me?” God is declaring your freedom today! God is declaring His name over you as His treasured possession His holy nation, His precious child.

In the first few plagues Pharoah promises freedom, but then changes his mind and denys them that promised freedom. This is the Law to a tee! It promises freedom, but by itself brings us nothing but more chains, more rules to break and feel guilty over. The promised freedom that the Law does bring is Jesus. Jesus is the complete and total fulfillment of the Law. Every single requirement the Law has Jesus has fulfilled those requirements. He IS the perfect sacrificial Lamb, in Him there is no darkness, there is no captivity, there are no more requirements. Jesus asks for nothing in return but respect and thanksgiving for what He has done for us. Personally I don’t think that’s too much to ask.

Categories: 2 Corinthians, Writing Through the Bible in a Year

From Guilt to Grace

Wish the Father a Good Morning! With Mandisa

Sing/Pray: Open the Eyes of my Heart

Today’s Reading: 2 Corinthians 6:1-10:18

Yesterday I shared with you about a piece that I wrote from the edge of my bed that was my first real encounter with The Light. This is that piece. Re-reading it again I now understand why it brought me so much excitement… and I also understand why the Enemy snatched it away from me and filled me with the fear of condemnation so that I wouldn’t publish it!!! It’s the Truth like I’ve never heard it before!!! God made us and we are soooooo beautiful in His sight! My dear friends, feast your eyes on the Light that Satan has, even today, desperately been trying to hide from our eyes.


In the beginning God created them to love and to be loved. It’s impossible to love when you don’t have an object, a recipient, of your love. And we are precisely that for God.

God is love… but without us He had no one to direct that love toward. And for this purpose we were created. This was God’s original plan. Create an object to direct His affections towards. In the garden before the original sin took place, Adam and Eve were exactly the way we are right now… minus one thing, the knowledge of good and evil. In my reading this morning God brought me to the garden filled with trees that are pleasant to look at and good for food; the Tree of Life in the middle of the garden and also the tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil. (Genesis 2:9) Now God has taught me that trees in the Bible are a symbol of men. Which makes me wonder, when reading this passage symbolically the Tree of Life would be a person and the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil would be another person. So, who is the Tree of Life? Well… God breathed the breath of life into Adam giving him life. Perhaps, seeing as how the Greek word used for Holy Spirit can also be translated as “breath” I think it’s safe to assume that the breath of life is the Holy Spirit. Now if the breath of life is the Holy Spirit I don’t feel it’s too much of a jump to conclude that the Tree of Life would be Jesus considering also how many times the scriptures refer to the cross as a tree. And Jesus tells us that He came to bring us abundant life.

So, if Jesus is the Tree of Life, then who is the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil? Well, as I meditated upon that quandary I thought back to the fruit of both trees. They both have fruit. If Jesus is the Tree of Life then its fruit is grace, and eating that fruit would be hearing His words of grace, chewing on them briefly and then swallowing them down like the best chocolate on earth allowing them to become part of who we are. Now, if that’s what the process for eating the fruit of the tree is, then the same would be true of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. You see knowledge is power. The more we know generally the more powerful we are. The fruit of this tree looks powerful and appealing, but in reality its end result is dissatisfaction and death. While Adam and Eve were standing before the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil, with whom were they speaking? Yes, the serpent of old, the Enemy himself, Satan. This is incredibly shocking information for me to have learned – so counter to much of my Christian upbringing, but think about it! Before their conversation with the serpent, Adam and Eve were innocent and blissfully unaware of their sinfulness. They were naked and unashamed, human – just like us, sinful tendencies -just like us, but had not acted on those tendencies because of their intimate relationship with God the creator!

In the beginning He gave them one rule “of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil, thou shalt not eat of it for in the day that thou eatest thereof thou shalt die.” Or, in other words, “Don’t believe Satan! He lies about Me!” It wasn’t the talking to him, it wasn’t even the taking a bite and chewing on the lies, it was the EATING the swallowing, the accepting of his lies, believing them as the truth, THAT was the sin – the disobedience, the fall from grace. That one disobedience from that one rule ended in centuries of new rules being written and enforced. Creating the Law and with it death. Think about it, if there’s only one law – then there’s only one sin – one way to die. But the more laws there are it increases the opportunity to sin and therefore more ways to seemingly fall out of relationship with God! But oh! How great is the love of our God Yaweh?!? So great that it was killing Him to watch us attempt to figure things out on our own. He gave us the Ten Commandments to show us just how futile living on our own power of knowledge was! It was impossible to keep the Law. Period. End of story. And it still is. So, what did God do? He said “OK kids, now let Me show you how this is done!” And He took off His robe, got up from His throne and came to earth as a completely helpless baby; the perfect example of humility and trust. An infant knows nothing of this world, and honestly, they don’t care either. All they care about is being fed, clean, warm and most importantly loved.

That infant is totally and completely taken care of every single second of the day, every single thing they could need or want is provided for them. And this is how God intended for our life with Him to be. He originally placed humanity smack in the middle of a garden with all the food (both spiritual and physical) that we could ever need. And we didn’t have clothing because we had no need for clothes or shame! Those only came along with the belief of the false truth that the Enemy fed our father and mother. It’s a false truth that we’ve been feasting on ever since!

That the knowledge of good and evil does not lead to death. LIE! When we were children we didn’t know what was right or what was wrong. We didn’t know what was good or what was bad, nor honestly, did we care. That is how Adam and Eve were before they ate fruit from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil. They didn’t know they were sinful creatures with sinful unholy and ungodly tendencies, nor did they care. They were naked (= sinful) and UNASHAMED.

I want to take a look at a story of Abraham for a minute to illustrate a point here. In Genesis twenty Abraham and his wife Sarah are traveling and Abraham is afraid that the men will desire his beautiful wife and kill him to get her. So he tells her to say that she is his sister in order to save his own life. This results in Sarah being taken as one of Abimelech’s wives. Surprise, surprise. But before he even touches her God gives him a dream and lets him know that the plagues of barrenness are all because of this prophet’s wife being in his possession, and that if he knows what’s really good for him and his country, he will send her back to her husband! Well, of course he does just that and more! He sends the happy couple off so heavily laden with gold and physical riches that they can barely carry them all!

Now, what does this passage have to do with Adam and Eve and innocence? Everything! Abraham is known, above all else as being a man of faith. He LOVED God and he followed Him. Abraham was long dead before the Ten Commandments were given, so he had never heard of “thou shalt not bear false witness” or “thou shalt not covet thy neighbor’s wife” or even “Thou shalt not commit adultery”. All he had heard was “Follow Me and I will bless you and you will bless others.”

In this story of Abraham stretching the truth to protect his own skin and giving his wife up to be a new concubine for some guy, we also see that God didn’t punish him for ANY of that. Nope. He SAVED him from all of it. And not just Abraham but Sarah and Abimelech too!!! Abimelech was completely innocent in the whole thing. He had no way of knowing she was really Abraham’s wife; and said as much to God in the dream. But God kept him from touching Sarah! God looked right past Abraham’s half-truths and his attempts to save himself and pulled him out of the mess he had been in AND sent him away richer than he came in!

We were created as sinful creatures. Plain and simple. God MADE us that way – so do you think that that’s going to keep Him from loving us? Of course not! Nothing can separate us from the love that is in Christ Jesus! The only thing that happens is it keeps us from accepting His love for us. It keeps us from living in it. Just my love for my kids makes me want to be a better mom and my love for my husband makes me want to be a better wife. My love for God makes me want to be more like the way He sees me… the way He made me to be, His precious bride. It makes me want to be a better person. Make better choices, to do the right thing. But, what IS the right thing? And how do I know if I’m doing it or not? Well, Jesus tells us that the single most important commandment is to love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your mind and all your soul. Second is this to love your neighbor as yourself. With these two all the Laws of the Prophets are included.

If I’m doing something to another one of God’s children that is not showing them that I love them because He loves them, then I am not loving God and therefore I am not obeying God. Because of Christ’s sacrifice of the cross we can come full circle in our relationship with Him. We started with one rule “Believe Me, not Satan”. We chose to disobey that rule in turn eventually we received hundreds more! But Jesus came to fulfill the Law and on that cross with His dying breath He said “It is finished” and fulfilled every rule that had ever been written before. And replaced them with “Love one Another as I have loved you.” Yes, God is a wrath-filled God, but that wrath was written into the Law and the Law is fulfilled and FINISHED, once and for all, period! All that’s left is grace and accepting it (eating from the Tree of Life)!

Have we sinned? Of course! All day every day! But so did Adam and Eve even before they ate the fruit of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. Remember, they were naked and unashamed, after they ate they were still naked the only thing that changed was that they were aware and ashamed of their nakedness. They weren’t ashamed of their nakedness until AFTER they’d eaten the fruit! They didn’t feel guilty until they listened to the Enemy – the deceiver himself! Guilt is from Evil – Grace is from God. We now have the knowledge of the two, and can choose which one we will believe; the fruit of Life – grace; or the fruit of death – guilt.

Jesus, the Tree of Life, died to SHOW you once and for all that you are forgiven. Today He LIVES to remind you that you have been freed from the prison of guilt and shame forever. Now go and live in that freedom, you are free from condemnation, you are free to be whomever GOD made you to be. Uniquely YOU!

Categories: 2 Corinthians, Writing Through the Bible in a Year

Marvelous Light

Prepare yourself with: Sanctuary

Today’s reading: 2 Corinthians 1:1-5:21

Praise: Nothing but the Blood of Jesus

Over the last few weeks I have experienced a light like none other in my life. I was raised in the church; I thought I knew what the Light really was… I was wrong. Over the last few years of searching scriptures, chewing on them and digesting them through writing about them I have had brief glimpses of the true Light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ. Each of those brief glimpses was just that… brief. The first of which I remember vividly, I was fiercely led to write, the urge was insatiable – as it often is after a day or two of going without. I grabbed my notebook and my pen and sat down on the corner of my bed, certainly not my usual seat choice for writing, which is part of what makes this moment stand out in my memory. I wrote a piece that shone such a brilliant light into my heart, I was shocked and amazed. I went back and read what I had written, not quite sure what mystery God had just revealed to me that was so bright. I have to tell you it was the strangest feeling, a feeling of glee and elation at having discovered something new. (I promise to share this piece with you as soon as the Lord allows, however I also have to prepare you for it the way He prepared me to receive it.)

Now I’m drawn to describe the Light to you, as the Light itself is the absolute key to what I’m preparing to tell you, although I did not know that about the Light at the time. As I wrote I could see with my spiritual eyes a Light. It came not from any discernible source in the room or even outside of my closed bedroom, but was within me burning brightly, brighter than any light I have ever seen in my life. A Light so bright that it should hurt your eyes to look into is, as though you were looking straight into the sun, yet it didn’t hurt the eyes at all but rather soothed them in a most pleasant of ways. The Light brought a delightful warmth to my soul and a radiance to my face that I can only imagine. This Light was the True Light, and I was seeing it for the very first time. I was so enthused and excited about the treasure that God had given me! His Light in my soul, His Light shining in the darkness of the world around me through the knowledge of the glory and grace of God in the face of Jesus Christ. Jesus is that Light and it is His face that radiates that marvelous Light.

And then I opened the door to my bedroom. As quickly as I had been given The Light it was mercilessly snatched away from me. I no more than opened the door to my room when words of doubt flooded my ears with their demon claws they snatched at the Light I held in my cupped hands and not realizing what was happening and not yet fully grounded in Grace I agreed with those words of doubt, all based in scriptures of Law. Before I realized what had really happened the Light in my spirit was gone and I imagined it only to have been an illusion to begin with, a false light somehow. Of course, at the time I was more concerned with what I had written and less concerned with the Light, until now that is.

Quite a while later, possibly months I’m not sure, I was laying on the couch in our RV reading a book. While reading that book I came upon a scene where the author was describing an encounter with Jesus where every human present was surrounded by different colored lights, the picture he painted with his words was breathtaking and once again I came upon that blessed Light once more! I can’t even remember what the revelation itself was, only where I was and what I was doing but again the moment I walked out the door of the RV the Light was once again violently snatched away from me and replaced with those words of condemnation and doubt. And whatever revelation I had received from the LORD was stolen away from me once more.

A third time I encountered the Light it was my birthday! I was sitting in our red recliner watching Joseph Prince “Destined to Reign” and he was retelling his own story of learning the lesson of grace. How he had lived a very legalistic life and believed whole-heartedly that his sins were only forgiven after asking for that forgiveness. One night in the barracks he overheard two of his military friends talking about him. One asked the other why Joseph was always covering his mouth and saying things under his breath, and the other replied, “I think he’s praying”. Joseph (and I) believed that in order to have a right relationship with God we had to do all the right things, live as sinlessly as possible and when we did sin we had to immediately ask for forgiveness, hence the covered mouth prayers. Joseph then talked about Jesus and His blood sacrifice being enough for all time to forgive us for our sins once and for all. He talked about how there is NO condemnation in Christ, and that because of Jesus’ sacrifice we no longer have to go around asking for forgiveness day in and day out, because we already have it! I wrapped my arms around that truth that day, I clung to the idea that I am forgiven and no longer need to be in a constant state of worry that I might accidentally sin and bring a barrier between my Beloved Christ and myself. As if my sin would cause Him to need to turn away from me in disgust. Even though I knew that He had promised (and meant it) I will never leave you or forsake you. That afternoon I sat down and wrote Son-glasses, one of my favorite pieces to this day. And that time I got to hold The Light for three days before it was snatched from my grasp again through those evil words of doubt and condemnation… the Law. It always came back down to the Law. The Enemy always used the verse about “If you love Me, you will obey Me.” And then would point out that God wrote the Law with His own finger on tablets of stone.

Funny, the Enemy never once pointed out that Jesus was the fulfillment of that very Law (Matthew 5:17) he was so quick to point me towards. Nor would the Enemy mention that love does not insist on always getting His own way (1 Corinthians 13:5) The Enemy failed to mention how he Himself tempted Jesus to turn stones into bread to eat on His way out of the desert when He was hungry from fasting. Stones into bread eh… as in tablets of stone in to the daily bread of Life… notice Jesus refused to do such a thing and countered the ole Liar with “Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God.” (Matthew 4:4 & Deuteronomy 8:3 emphasis mine) Every word; not JUST the Law, not just one book or another, but all of God’s words; including the ones spoken by the Spirit straight to your heart. Like the ones God had just spoken to His Son Jesus forty days before the Adversary came to tempt Him, “This is My Beloved Son, with whom I am well pleased.“(Matthew 3:17) Those words were not written down anywhere yet, but Jesus clung to them in His time of testing when He pulled out the sword of scripture to counter the Enemy, He undoubtedly had that phrase lingering in His mind “You may say ‘IF I am the Son of God…’ but God has said to Me I AM His Son, and that is enough for Me!”

God’s Word is everywhere, it is in every heart, every mind, and on every tongue and we can hear it when we open our spiritual ears to hear it. We must stay grounded in the Bible, it has been tested through time and it is steadfast. Without the anchor of the Bible we are all too likely to drift away from the Truth and the Light that He brings to our path. However, we can not lean on the Bible alone. When we lean on the Bible and ignore the Spirit of Truth who guides us then we can get stuck in the past because we are clinging to the anchor and not allowing the Spirit (which in Hebrew can also be translated as wind or breath) to fill our sails and guide us to where the LORD God wants us to go. The scriptures are the Word of God, yes! Yes! Yes!!! BUT, they can be used for evil as well as for good! Satan is someone who knows those scriptures better than any of us! When I glimpsed those beautiful balls of pure radiant light through the truth of the Spirit I wanted so desperately to believe them, with all my heart and my soul. Because those truths, the truth of ultimate forgiveness through Jesus’ blood, was so radiant and filled with hope and joy and gladness and PEACE. But I let my brain get in the way. I let my brain be convinced that Jesus’ blood couldn’t possibly have been that powerful, that there was no way that I could have been ultimately forgiven for ALL my sins, just the ones that I had confessed and repented from. I believed the lies of the Enemy; I was deceived just like Eve. I was bamboozled and let Satan pull that fluffy white wool of fake light over my eyes once again.

In today’s reading we find: Such is the confidence that we have through Christ toward God. Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to claim anything as coming from us, but our sufficiency is from God, who has made us competent to be ministers of a new covenant, not of the letter but of the Spirit. For the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life.
The ministry that brought death, ahhhh, how well I know that ministry, it brought me much death in my short 32 years of life. And with that ministry there is glory, there is a light, and I knew that light well. But that glory, that light it is TRANSITORY, it is nothing more than a thick black coloring book outline for the ministry of the Spirit to come along and fill in with all His loving color. With EVERY messy color, from brown to gray to purple, fushia and puce! And you know what, I doubt that the Spirit will limit Himself by only coloring within the lines of the Law, but rather color the entire page, no, the entire BOOK with His breath of fresh color-filled air.

Holy Spirit of Jesus, guiding Spirit of Truth and Light and Life, come, Oh Spirit come, fill us with Your fire. Open our eyes to see You, open our ears to hear You, open our minds to understand Your beautiful light more, open our hearts to receive the love of Your grace fully, open our hands to give Your love generously and receive Your love humbly. Jesus we thank You that Your blood IS good enough to last for all time, to be a PERMANENT atonement for our sins and not a temporary fix like so many ministries would like for us to think. (Including my own at one point I’m sad to say.) Jesus thank You for not just dying for us, but LIVING for us every day to be our intercessor in the court room of heaven where the Adversary is constantly accusing us of wrong doing. Thank You for reminding him who is really the boss around here and that it’s not him! Thank You for being our only and best line of defense. Jesus help us to see You for who You really are. Not just God, but the human you became in order to relate to us more fully. Help us to see the person You are. Flesh and bone, eating and drinking with sinners all day every day and LOVING every single moment of it! You are the best friend any of us could ever have and we thank You for being our friend. Jesus I want to know You more, I want to know Your goodness like I’ve never known it before. You told the parable of the prodigal son and his brother, Lord, I was that brother, I was the one who worked for you day and night, I was the one who labored to obey your every command and was so blind to the parties and celebrations I could have had with You if I had just asked. Lord, I’m asking. You told that son that everything that belonged to you was his as well. What is mine and how do I access it? I know that the time of Your favor is now I need only ask, so on behalf of myself, my family and my readers I’m asking for You to pour out Your grace and Your favor on us, like a gentle spring rain. Oh Lord, I love You!!!!! Thank You for Your MARVELOUS light!

Marvelous Light by Charlie Hill

I Choose Jesus by Moriah Peters

Categories: 2 Corinthians, Writing Through the Bible in a Year

Please Forgive Me!

Today’s Reading: 2 Corinthians 1:1-5:21

Please forgive me my inconsistency this week. It’s been a tumultuous week! From being gone all weekend, attempting to recover on Monday and Tuesday only to be interrupted once again with a diagnosis of pink eye and a lingering ear infection for my nine year old, so he was home today unexpectedly. He will be back in school tomorrow… only to be home again on Friday for an unused snow day! Plus, amid all that chaos I’ve been working on what I think is an amazing piece of teaching (if I may say so myself – it amazed me anyway)! So hang in there, just consider today a bit of a break… even if it wasn’t a real “break” for me! J Life happens!

Categories: 2 Corinthians, Writing Through the Bible in a Year

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